Friday, August 3, 2012

Not looking good

Got back from vacation last night. Was eaten alive by what we think were bedbugs. Everyone else was untouched, including K who slept most nights with me. Now we're decontaminating everything we took with us so we don't get them at our house.
Our transfer was set for 10:15am this morning, with a PIO shot 1 hour ahead of that. Dr H came out to see us while we were waiting to say "This ends well, BUT your embryo only had 20% cell survival. They kept growing it to see what would happen, and it has continued to divide well and is starting to expand. I think we should wait 30min and see if it continues to expand." We agreed to that and later got taken back, bladder scanned (finally perfectly full), then told that we'd just wait for Dr H.
He went and talked to the lab (we thought things were fine already, or they wouldn't have taken us back). Then came in to say things seemed to be stalling, and we have two options: transfer today and get our blast back in its natural environment, but deal with 2 weeks of uncertainty till beta. Or wait a day and see what it was doing by tomorrow. We decided to do it today to maximize our chances. I can wait 13 days to see what's what. Transfer was ultrasound-guided and "textbook". 
I'm so sad now though, since it'll be a miracle if this embryo survives and we have no backup. Once this FET is over, that's it according to DH. No more IVF.

7 comments:

Amanda said...

Sorry about the disappointing embryo and the finality of this cycle. I hope it turns out well.

If this cycle isn't successful and you don't feel your family size is complete, you might look into counseling. You need to find a way to feel satisfaction with your family size. There are a lot of wonderful things about being a family of three, don't loose sight of that.

Jill M. said...

Ugh, I'm so sorry for such a disappointing transfer. This will be so hard waiting to see what will happen. Come on embie, keep going!

Anonymous said...

Oh goodness. Really hoping that this little embie acts like the little engine that could and totally surprises you. Will be thinking about you during this terribly hard 2 week wait.

Lisa said...

Oh Kate, I don't know what to say other than that I hope this works. I can't imagine how hard it must be when you feel it's your last shot and DH isn't budging. Thinking of you!

Mo said...

Ugh on the bedbugs, and so sorry that things aren't looking promising. That embryo is tucked in the best place possible - inside of you. Hoping that does the trick and allows it to perk back up and continue. I know how much is riding on this. Thinking of you.

Mo

Dandle Dreams said...

Good luck! My thumbs are pressed for you.

Anonymous said...

Oh Kate, I'm sorry about the disappointing thaw. Like others have said, the best place for your little embryo is back inside you. I will be continuing to hope for a miracle. I know how much this means to you. I was hoping your DH would change his mind,going through the FET process and mentally preparing for the possibility of success. Thinking of you...
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